twilightthecat

I'm sorry for not telling you this sooner however if I were to attempt it the moment I left I wouldn't know how to put it in words. I'm sorry for avoiding all of you for the past several months, I truly and absolutely am, but it was only because I didn't know how to tell you I jsut wanted to move on with my life and see if I can get started with starting a new internet life and such with the new information I've gathered from this one. Okay, now I'm just sounding like a complete jackass, but please bear with me. Friends have to depart at some point right? I just felt the need to depart now but I've realised the mistake I made, I forgot to say goodbye.

I just hope that some of us will meet again. I went from joyful to fatally depressed to where I couldn't even express how I was feeling and I just became unreasonable, I'm not saying it was anyone's fault and I don't blame anyone. I believe I've hurt others beside myself in the process and I'm sorry and I take every last word back. I'm really really sorry that I have to go, but, I feel that I have to go sometime. I won't reveal any usernames that I am currently using now however that doesn't mean we won't meet again.

I'm really and truly sorry that I have to say this, I really am but, goodbye.

OKAY SO.
What happened to me?

Well, so, um, I decided to catch up on homestuck and actually read problem sleuth and stuff.   After that I saw the thread on the MSPA Forums and saw the Pesterchum...(Insert harmony here).  So I got addicted to the #R41NBOW_RUMPUS_P4RTYTOWN memo on it.  After that I forgot about posting art on deviantART, pffffffffft.  After that...well stuff.

But now, I shall try to post art.  And I shall try to do more stuff.  Thank you and good night.

In Other News:
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I have taken requests, art trades and commissions for a while
== WHEN ASKING ME TO DRAW SOMETHING BE SURE TO ADD ANYTHING SPECIFIC ==
because I can handle ANYTHING
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Requests:
1.
HURRY GET IT WHEN IT'S OPEN
For my request I only do one at a time
No one can save spots for Requests you have to get it when it's open
I don't make comics for my requests
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Art trades
1. Marshtomp

2.

3.
RECOMMENDED.
For my art trades you can save spots for these
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Commissions
1.

2.

3.

4.

5.
I only accept point commissions
Sketches only cost 1 point
Outline costs 5 points
Outline and colored costs 10 points
Outline, colored and with fur/hair effect or bg costs 15
Outline, colored, fur/hair effect with bg and other effects costs 20
Icon costs 5 points
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What I draw

I can draw Sonic fan-characters, Humans(Getting decent at it), Pokemon, Vehicles, real animals, and other beings and objects (depends on request)

I will refuse to draw porn and anything related to it.
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Well my computer somehow fixed itself,
I have alot of homework and...

APPARENTLY 3 As, 2 Bs AND 3 Cs RIGHT ON MY REPORT CARD, LOLWUT.
IDON'TEVEN

ALSO I'M GOING TO BEAT THE LAST GYM LEADER.
JUST THROWING THAT OUT THERE.

CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
ICE CREAM BEATING UP DRAGONS.....
REALLY?
VICTINI, SERPIREOR AND SIMIPOUR PROBABLY WON'T STAND A CHANCE...

BUT MY MAN ICEE THE VANILLISH COMES TO SAVE THE DAY.

In Other News:
=================================
I have taken requests, art trades and commissions for a while
== WHEN ASKING ME TO DRAW SOMETHING BE SURE TO ADD ANYTHING SPECIFIC ==
because I can handle ANYTHING
===
Requests:
1.
HURRY GET IT WHEN IT'S OPEN
For my request I only do one at a time
No one can save spots for Requests you have to get it when it's open
I don't make comics for my requests
===
Art trades
1. Marshtomp

2.

3.
RECOMMENDED.
For my art trades you can save spots for these
===
Commissions
1.

2.

3.

4.

5.
I only accept point commissions
Sketches only cost 1 point
Outline costs 5 points
Outline and colored costs 10 points
Outline, colored and with fur/hair effect or bg costs 15
Outline, colored, fur/hair effect with bg and other effects costs 20
Icon costs 5 points
===
What I draw

I can draw Sonic fan-characters, Humans(Getting decent at it), Pokemon, Vehicles, real animals, and other beings and objects (depends on request)

I will refuse to draw porn and anything related to it.
===

I got spyware or something on my computer, or at least it looks like it... >.> My mom is not really saying it's spyware since it's not really selling anything.  I have absolutely no idea.  So I am just on this old laptop that's as think as 2 notebooks....gosh I love classic stuff.(Pip pip and tallyho!)  Also I feel like sanding every table I see, I dunno why I just have that urge. LOLOLOL anyways.

I will try to make more art, I mean I have a Photoshop alternative that is called Pixlr (Pixlr.com) which I used before I got my Tablet(Which came with photoshop) so I'm already use to that.  Anyways blah blah blah money troubles money troubles blah blah depression depression.  Derp, I'm boring.  Okay then, so um I am running out of ideas here to end this paragraph. AdhfdsfhsdifhdisfhdsiofdiosfI<3Chereeeeeeenheissmexybbyodifiufsiofuidsifdsofyilsdo.

On a lighter note, atleast I still have interneeeeeeeeeet. (which is horrible BUT I DON'T CARE )
ALSOSILVERANDCHERENAREMYB*TCHESANDIAMTHEIRPIMP*INSERTPIMPHATHERE*.  ALSO I'M ADDICTED TO ANIMAL CROSSING AGAIN, AND I MEAN THE GAMECUBE ONE. DARN YOU MONEYZZZ, Y U NO BE HIGHER?

EDIT:
THESE THINGY WERE POSTED EVERYWHERE SO I FIGURED I WOULD DO SOMETHING, meow.

So uh...
Comment in this journal and I will tell you...

1. Something I learned about you looking at your dA page for 13 seconds.
2. What colour do you remind me of.
3. My first memory of you.
4. Something I've always wondered about you.
5. What I like the most of you.
6. I'll give you a weird name.
7. I'll tell you what it is on my shirt right now.
8. Tell you a pokemon you remind me of
9. I'll challenge you to post this in your journal as well.

Good day and good night everybody!

In Other News:
=================================
I have taken requests, art trades and commissions for a while
== WHEN ASKING ME TO DRAW SOMETHING BE SURE TO ADD ANYTHING SPECIFIC ==
because I can handle ANYTHING
===
Requests:
1.
HURRY GET IT WHEN IT'S OPEN
For my request I only do one at a time
No one can save spots for Requests you have to get it when it's open
I don't make comics for my requests
===
Art trades
1. Marshtomp

2.

3.
RECOMMENDED.
For my art trades you can save spots for these
===
Commissions
1.

2.

3.

4.

5.
I only accept point commissions
Sketches only cost 1 point
Outline costs 5 points
Outline and colored costs 10 points
Outline, colored and with fur/hair effect or bg costs 15
Outline, colored, fur/hair effect with bg and other effects costs 20
Icon costs 5 points
===
What I draw

I can draw Sonic fan-characters, Humans(Getting decent at it), Pokemon, Vehicles, real animals, and other beings and objects (depends on request)

I will refuse to draw porn and anything related to it.
===

Depression?

Well, I really wouldn't say it as depression.  I would say it as not feeling happiness on the inside anymore, no matter what i'm doing, but i'm lacking negative feelings too, well except for stressed...otherwise most of the time I don't feel anything at all, it's weird I know, but it's happening.  Yes, I do feel sadness sometimes but I ignore that, because if I get sad, it would probably take a lot out of me for a long time, knowing that I haven't felt happiness for a long time.  So, somehow I just ignore it, I know it doesn't make much sense to you, but it makes sense to me.  And yet I kept that in for so long, just because I have no idea how to say it, the counselor at my school said I might have a speaking problem, trying to say what my thoughts in my head are but having a hard time finding the words for it, other times I just forget about the journal completely and drift off to other websites.

You probably won't understand a word i'm saying, you probably will, why i'm posting it, I don't know...it's not really like getting something of my chest it's more of something I just wanted to say.  Meh.  I don't even know.  I just know that no one will help me so I just have to learn that I don't care about what I feel anymore either.  No, i'm not trying to grab attention, it's just that even if I wanted to, I just can't feel happiness anymore.

Oh wow, this is like what?  How many paragraphs long?  Wow, you are reading a lot.  I'm getting better at this longer journal thing... Anyways, back on topic!

Times have been tough lately and me and my family has been moving a lot, which could be one of the things that are causing this, we have also been lacking money for a while, which could also be another.  A lot more other things have been happening lately, it's amazing how much anger and sadness I can hold to myself.  Oi, I keep thinking it's going to get better but, i'm becoming impatient...  Yet, all I can do is wait.  But I feel like I could actually do something, when I probably can't.  Eh, I just don't know what to do.
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Valentines

Welp, it's about 9:40 PM where I live right now.  For me, valentines day is nothing special, I mean, I don't really love anyone so.  Meh, it could go either way.  I don't think it's stupid, I just don't celebrate it because I don't know who I love.  But when I do find someone, i'll celebrate, simple as that.

It's all fine with me!


In Other News:
=================================
I have taken requests, art trades and commissions for a while
== WHEN ASKING ME TO DRAW SOMETHING BE SURE TO ADD ANYTHING SPECIFIC ==
because I can handle ANYTHING
===
Requests:
1.
HURRY GET IT WHEN IT'S OPEN
For my request I only do one at a time
No one can save spots for Requests you have to get it when it's open
I don't make comics for my requests
===
Art trades
1. Marshtomp

2.

3.
RECOMMENDED.
For my art trades you can save spots for these
===
Commissions
1.

2.

3.

4.

5.
I only accept point commissions
Sketches only cost 1 point
Outline costs 5 points
Outline and colored costs 10 points
Outline, colored and with fur/hair effect or bg costs 15
Outline, colored, fur/hair effect with bg and other effects costs 20
Icon costs 5 points
===
What I draw

I can draw Sonic fan-characters, Humans(Getting decent at it), Pokemon, Vehicles, real animals, and other beings and objects (depends on request)

I will refuse to draw porn and anything related to it.
===

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!